- Own a ceramic studio
- Earn a pilot license
- Eliminate bullshit from my life
Now, you may be thinking (good job, welcome to consciousness), those goals are so random, what nonsense is this? Well, fuck you. They’re my goals.
Anyway, I’d love to be happy. That doesn’t mean I don’t have happiness in my life. I’m just saying I would adore FEELING happy and satisfied in everything I do. There was a time I felt that and it was incredible. No one could get me down. Currently, I’m working on it. Life’s a tough bitch. I’ve heard that happiness is a warm gun. Well, I’ve never held a warm gun before, but I’m pretty sure I can handle it. It’s, also, been said that happiness is a hopeless goal for the weak. That it is pathetic to seek out. I can’t see how they determined that. Happiness touched me once and it was pretty much the sweetest sensation I’ve ever experienced. Pure bliss. I don’t know exactly how I will get it back yet. There are a number of things that are holding me back from this goal.
I have a passion for art. I simply love it. The world is cluttered with art and I can never get my fill of it. In high school I took a minimum of one art class each year. I had taken photography (basic and advanced), wood shop, studio in art, ceramics (basic and advanced), and interior design. The thing that amazes me about art is that it is limitless. Art is your proclamation to the world “This is me and I’m fucking awesome.” To own my own ceramic shop would most definitely help me on my way to finding my true happiness. Clay is a beautiful tool to express yourself with. If you ever get the chance to take a class or go to a studio open to the public, I highly recommend it. It’s not for everyone, but there are many ways to create with it. You never know what you’ll enjoy until you try. My particular favorite companion to clay is glaze. Glaze is the (not quite) paint like material that you apply to clay objects that have been fired to give them color. The most dreaded, and my much loved, part about glaze is that the colors never come out the same twice. Many glazes look entirely different from their liquidy concoction to their hard, fired state. Applying just one can turn out looking like you applied about three glazes. It’s really quite impressive. It has its own personality and I love it. Yikes, I seem to have gone off on a glaze parade. Suppose it’s time to move along now.
Why a pilot’s license you ask? Why not asshole? Once again, these are my goals and you can leave your curiosity out of it, punk. Now, as I was about to explain…a couple of years ago, I went to a job fair and saw a packet “Learn to fly! Become a pilot!” Hell yeah I want to learn to fly! The thought to fly a plane myself had never occurred to me previously. It’s a brilliant idea. Flying an aircraft must be exhilarating. So far, I have had no financial ability to go and present myself to a flight instructor, but my hope is that someday I will. Driving a car would probably be positively miserable after learning to fly. No one is in your way (one would hope) in the sky.
Nobody likes bullshit. I, for one, am anti-bullshit. As far as I can tell, my duration on this planet, with this species, will forever be plagued with a timeless supply of it. The unnecessary shit that goes on is alarming and immensely unappealing. Anger is something I sincerely try to avoid. I’m not naïve enough to believe that no one should get angry from now on. I get really pissed off sometimes. Nonetheless, it is something taken for granted all the time. Anger is not something people should use as a consistent reaction to situations. There are proper causes and times for anger. If you find yourself getting so terribly mad all the time, then maybe it’s about time for you to change something. My suggestion is to do something about the cause of your frustrations. Do something to relax once in a while! Your moods are more contagious than you think. Another thing that is totally unnecessary is the social system in place. Money? Religion? Etiquette? Must we, really? I know you tell me money has value, I know what I believe in without having other people piggybacking all around me, and I don’t want to have to follow your rules. I’m not going to go around slaughtering villages like a deranged lunatic. I’m still going to be a really good person. But seriously, I don’t need the entire heap of bullshit I have to choke down everyday. Retail? Not even touching that monstrosity right now.
Shut up bullshit.