Hello there. I would like to take this time to thank you for ever caring enough to read anything I have ever written. I am truly grateful that you have taken the time to do so. It is most definitely possible that you have the most reserved hatred for what you have read. It is, also, possible that you enjoyed at least a line or two. Either way, thank you for the emotional, intellectual, and/or physical investment you have given my work. I am still young, and still learning.
Tonight is a dreary-sick sort of night. Let’s contemplate, shall we?
The end of February is approaching and soon, it will be gone forever. Isn’t that mind blowing? February 2012 will vanish. It will no longer be a part of our daily life. We will never again write February 2012 in the present tense. Simply mind blowing. I suppose all aspects of our lives are like that. I just typed those words, and these words for that matter, and I cannot rewind time and type them in the same manner ever again. We all leave this existence at some point.
Time is something we created to record the time we seemingly have not. I will explain. Time, in the sense of clocks and calendars, is man-made time. Inaccurate, interpreted, altering man-made time. Daylight savings time allows us to change time in order to preserve daylight. We do not time travel when we do this. We are simply manipulating the mechanics in our time trackers. Natural time (I don’t believe there is any formal name for it, I will refer to it as natural time) happens every instant. We cannot stop it. We cannot control it. We can only endure it and allow it to wear us down until we presumably die. It is possible that someday we can manipulate natural time as easily as man-made time. Maybe we already can. It is not of my knowledge that we have the ability to alter natural time as of now, so I will say that we cannot…yet.
Why do people believe others are real? I think it could be a number of reasons. It could be that it is too abstract, too complicated, to consider any alternative. What is the point of it all if none of you are real? Who am I writing this for? Is the entire society I live in something I have created for myself? Maybe this is better than being alone for eternity. I think so, but how should I know? I have considered the reality I live in to be acceptable. Not comfortable. Never comfortable. Acceptable. I think you’re all afraid. Well, I suppose you should be. Who wants to be alone in…who knows? Space. But probably not the space commonly referred to as space. Space, as in void. I am a void.
The social contract is so inconvenient. I don’t want to be nice to people who are rude to me. I don’t want them to get away with it. I don’t want to bind myself to the social etiquette of this world. Don’t curse in front of children, in school, in church, on television. Don’t undress in public. Don’t do drugs. Don’t think for yourself, just do what we tell you to do. Buy this. Don’t upset the normal. Don’t use wisdom and experience to make decisions. Don’t stay home all day. Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. JESUS I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF IT. When I am at work and a customer is being the largest douche bag any vagina has ever seen, I just want to make them realize “Hey, you are the reason we are not evolving faster!” People make these rules for themselves that don’t really exist and don’t really matter, but if someone isn’t following them, it becomes a big fucking deal. But, why? Why do we want it to be acceptable to think reading is “stupid?” Why do we want kids to feel like they can cross six lane highways without being crushed by a Mack truck? Why do we want people to drink and smoke cigarettes, but not use any other drug? What’s the big deal?
I tried to start this piece off on a positive note hoping it would create a snowball of good vibes and real wonderful shit. But, my frustration with the world I reside in snuck in there and it is not coming back. Oh well. There’s always next week. Goodnight everyone.
And here’s an update on some of the projects I’ve been working on for school.
3D Design cardboard project:
and the latest project in Basic Ceramics. I like it better this way rather than after I glazed it, so I am showing you all the mug-for-two I made in the un-glazed state.